Day 1…”Healing”

 I’ve always been told that writing is one of the best forms of self therapy, so here goes nothing!  Honestly for me, running was, and I’m sure there are thousands of you runners out there who could 100% back me up on this.  After 13 years of very dedicated running, I was told by my doctor that I have a possible nonunion tibial stress fracture.  I immediately teared up while my mind was digging really deep to make sense out of the heartbreaking and truly devastating words that just came out of his mouth.  In fact I’m pretty certain, “you know this is absolutely devastating news,” came out of my trembling lips. I’m sorry, doc, but what in the actual fuck did you say? I will start by saying that this is one of the biggest blows and setbacks I have faced in my adult lifetime.  I simply can’t understand how someone so healthy, so active, can be right where I am.  I don’t want to come off as ungrateful, because I am truly blessed beyond belief in so many ways, but DAMNIT!!!!  I want my running back!  I want the freedom of being alone with my thoughts, I want the one on one with my heartbeat and the wind hitting my face.  I want the sweat that I too often complained about burning my eyes back.  Most of all, I want me back.  So, with all of this said. I hope you fellow runners can join me as I fight like hell to find a way to get myself back.  

Xoxo,

Kate